What Is This Something?

Just as waves come and go in the ocean, thought waves come and go in the ocean of awareness, the knowing presence that is always with us, always is us.

Seekers of the truth often complain of being bothered by their thoughts and are taught to meditate, to learn how to watch thoughts come and go. But then we end up being watchers, the witness. But the witness is just another wave, another thought. Perhaps it can be considered a special wave, an important thought, but it is still just a passing activity like a wave on the ocean, a fleeting appearance in awareness.

Just as waves, be they tsunamis or ripples, do not affect the ocean in any way except as temporary variations on its surface, thoughts, tormenting or seductive, do not affect awareness in any way except as a temporary variation in its unlimited spaciousness. The ocean has no interest or need in controlling the waves and awareness has no interest or need in controlling the mind.

At first we think it is I, the personal self that observes and interacts with the world. But this I turns out to be just that, a thought, a temporary attribute of a body-mind limited by the concepts of time and space – it is born, lives, and dies. So we look a little deeper and discover that there is another I, the witness, which observes and knows all appearances of the body, mind, and world. But as we look even closer we recognize that the witness is also just a thought, an idea, known by something that exists before it.

What is this something that exists before all else?

The waves, the thoughts, the ocean, and the witness all arise in and are known by this something that is obviously present and aware before, during, and after all appearances, all experiences, come and go.

Something that can’t be found, yet is everywhere. Something that is nameless, but from which all names arise. Something that is ever-present and aware. We all know what this is, this aware presence that is always with us. We sense it in the depths of our being. We are it in the depths of our being.

The truth of our experience is that all objects, all appearances, come and go in the limitless ocean of the aware presence that is at the core of our being, yet just as the ocean is unaffected by the activity of the waves, this aware presence remains untouched, untarnished, and unchanged by anything that occurs within its limitless presence.

Take this moment to relax into this understanding and live with, within, and as the freedom and spontaneity that is your, our, true nature.

Undead Or Unborn?

Mythology and folklore are filled with stories and legends of the undead – vampires, ghosts, zombies, etc. – dead beings that behave as though they are alive. With a little twist, human beings can be added to this legendary group – living beings that behave as though they are dead.

We think that we are alive, but everything we identify with as an individual self, as a body-mind – thoughts, feelings, sensations, and perceptions – has a brief life span. Most thoughts pass within seconds or minutes. Moods pass within hours or days. And our body-mind gradually, sometimes suddenly, gives up and dies. In other words, all attributes of the body, mind, and world are bound by the limits of time – they are born, live for a while, and then die.

If we live our lives identifying with this illusionary separate self made up of temporary attributes all destined to vanish, we might as well be counted amongst the walking dead.

Why not discover that within you, within each one of us that is timeless, that is unborn?

First, recognize the knowing presence within you, us, that says ‘I am’. Now drop the thought ‘I am’ and what remains? Something remains because you are still here.

What is it that exists in the absence of thought? After all, when a thought comes and goes, you, the one aware of the thought, don’t come and go with it.

Is this aware you ever not here? Is this aware you that experiences feelings disappear when a feeling fades? No. It is ever-present, timeless.

This aware you that knows the coming and going of all things, yet doesn’t come and go with them, is the source of your being, the source of all of our beings, as there can only be one.

We think that our ever-present awareness is ours alone, yet when we investigate the attributes of this ever-present consciousness, no limits can be found, and something that is limitless allows no room for two. Would it be possible to fit one infinite sky inside another?

Ever-present awareness has no beginning or end, experiences no birth or death. It is timeless and beyond space.

It is the unborn.

And you, I, we, are that.

I Don’t Mind

‘I don’t mind what happens.’ ~ J. Krishnamurti

Why would Krishnamurti say something like this? Because, relatively speaking, he was coming from the point of view of pure awareness. He didn’t mind what happened because, as pure awareness, all things happened in him, as him, not to him.

Just as clouds cannot disturb the sky, nothing of the body, mind, or world can shake the sublime emptiness of pure awareness, the core of our being.

Birth and death happen in you, not to you. If this doesn’t make sense, you are looking from the point of view of the illusionary personal self, illusionary because all of its qualities – thoughts, feelings, sensations, and perceptions – are subject to the limits of time and space. They come and they go.

If this does make sense, you are observing the body, mind, and world from the point of view of pure awareness, in which all things appear and disappear and are therefore made of and known by, including the ideas of birth and death.

If whether something makes sense or not doesn’t matter, or as Krishnamurti says, you don’t mind what happens, you are looking at the body, mind, and world from beyond relativity, beyond any point of view, including that of pure awareness.

Call it non-conceptual awareness or choiceless awareness.

Then call it nothing at all and enjoy the silence, the peace.

The love.

I Think

I think . . .

Stop right there.

We think we think, but actually it’s a thought that thinks it thinks.

There is no ‘I’ that thinks.

Think about it.

Can you find this ‘I’ that thinks it thinks?

This sounds rather silly (frightening?) when you think about it, and it gets even sillier (more frightening?) when you try to find the ‘I’ that thinks . . .

. . . and can’t.

This ‘I’ that thinks it suffers, that thinks it prevails, that thinks it’s happy, depressed, sad, or lonely, where is it?

And if you can’t find it, who is the one looking?

Don’t Believe A Word

Don’t believe a word anyone tells you about enlightenment, awakening, liberation, original nature, or any other name for IT. The only way you will know for sure if this IT is for real is to find out for yourself.

The process, if you can call it that, as there is no you to do this, is to eliminate everything about yourself that is transitory. Why? If something is transitory, it can’t be considered real in the context of the search for IT. That is, if something is real, it will not come and go. It will be ever-present and undisturbed by anything that happens.

Getting back to ‘there is no you to do this’. This might sound perplexing, but when you eliminate all that you think you are, including all the temporary attributes of your body and mind and the ever-changing perceptions of the objective world, you find that this also eliminates the ‘you’, the personal self. So, in the end or beginning, depending on how you look at it, as neither an end nor beginning can actually be found, there is no you to search for liberation in the first place.

Now, and this is the important part, don’t believe a word of this.

Your Choice?

You think you can choose which direction your life will take. For example, take a spiritual seeker who thinks that it is ‘I’, the seeker, who chooses to discover the truth of my being, who thinks that ‘I’ can choose between being a separate self made up of the ever-changing attributes of the body-mind, or being the aware presence that knows the coming and going of all things, yet doesn’t come and go with them.

Your choice? Not exactly. You think, ‘I choose this’ and ‘I choose that.’ Before going any further, try to find this personal I that thinks it’s doing all the choosing.

Is it located in the mind, a series of random and transitory thoughts and images?

Is it located in the body, a tangle of ever-changing sensations housed in a perishable bag of skin and bones?

Is it located in the world made up of time-bound objects?

All of these qualities of the body, mind, and world are temporary and therefore can’t be considered real in the truest sense. Only the ever-present, unchanging element of our being can be considered real.

So where is it?

Our thorough investigation reveals that other than an ever-changing conglomeration of thoughts, feelings, sensations, and perceptions, no personal I can be found. If you think you’ve found it, think again. It’s just a passing thought or object.

There is no you to make any choice. Yet somehow we are able to move through this life. So who or what is making all the decisions?

You are life itself, and life lives itself. Life lives life.

It is awareness, the knowing presence that is at the core of our being, which chooses itself. So actually there is no choosing whatsoever. The sky doesn’t have to choose to be the sky. In the same way, awareness knows only itself, so there is no need to choose anything.

Just be and you will move smoothly, flawlessly in the world as choiceless awareness itself – unborn, undying, infinite and eternal.

I Have No Purpose

To say that you have no purpose in life is just a thought, an activity of the mind. The next minute or day you will say, I know exactly what I want to do, which is also a thought. The activity of the mind is a complex web of endlessly shifting memories, images, moods, and ideas. To be confused with your direction in life is a symptom of taking your thoughts seriously. But how can you take them seriously when one minute they say one thing, and the next minute something else?

If you must have a purpose, why not make it to find your original nature, your essential being? What else could be more important? To become rich and famous? Riches and fame are fleeting. All achievements are fleeting.

If you must have a purpose, find out who you really are. Are you really a collection of short-lived thoughts, memories, moods, and sensations that experiences the world from a bag of perishable skin and bones? Or are you the unalterable aware presence that knows all of the comings and goings of the temporary body-mind and ever-changing world yet doesn’t come and go with them?

Your choice: rest in the eternal peace and understanding of your unborn being or suffer and die at the hands of an illusionary self.